uhhh....can anyone see this?

(i made this one public bc apparently things aren't working...)

well, guys, i will be making all of my posts protected from now on.

i have added most of you who i am fine with reading everything...but if i forgot you, i'm sorry! or if you read this and i don't subscribe to you and you want to be able to view stuff then leave a comment saying you want to be added and i will most likely add you!

i am very sorry it has come down to this...but it is for reasons that are beyond my control at this point. i never wanted to do this, but i feel like it's something that needs to happen. i refuse to stop writing in here all together just because of certain things and/or people because this is MY blog and MY feelings...so i will just choose to go protected.

i just don't get it...

what is so wrong with cameron and me being happy together?

really...why is my happiness your bitterness?

you can do and say all you want, but it doesn't change the fact (nor will it ever) that i am in love with cameron.

i don't know who you are for sure (although IP addresses tell a lot and now i am pretty sure who you are in comparison to certain other people's IP's)...and because of this i will not go off on a rampage because i have respect for who you are...although you obviously have no respect for me...i am just so sorry that you can't be happy that i (and especially cameron) am happy. i wish there was something i could do, but by this point, i am lost as to what that will ever be...

i tripped up the stairs...twice...today

two different times, two different stair cases...

the second time i was holding a glass mug in my left hand...but it didn't break, thank the looorrrdd!!!

anyway, tonight = all the halloween festivities!!  i am soooo excited!!

'bout to start getting ready and then we're headin to Alex's!! 

guess what, I LOVE CAMERON JOSEPH HAMMON!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i miss him more than anything in the whole world...and guess what else!! he got me an ipod nano for my birthday!! it came in the mail yesterday and i haven't been able to stop messing with it since!!! my birthday isn't until dec.7 but my baby didn't see any reason why he couldn't go ahead and get it for me now!!  ahhhhh best boyfriend eveerrrr!! i've never had an ipod before, so i definitely see a new addiction coming onnn!! he got it engraved on the back and it says "CJH LOVES KLT" on the top and then right below that it says "9/21". ggooossshhh, i am the luckiest girl in the world.  only 6 more months, shamu!!! a month has already gone by; I KNOW WE CAN DO THIS, MY ONE!! gah, i am so happy!!

i hope everyone is having an amazing halloween weekend!! stay safe =)

'cause, baby, it's cooolldd outsiiiidddeeee!!!!!